Disorders Quiz (Taken from )

ANOREXIA
[x] you have dry skin
[ ] you eat 1 meal
[ ] you're very weak
[ ] you hate yourself
[ ] you starve yourself
[ ] you have low self esteem
[ ] you use laxatives
[ ] you need to be more skinny
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
[ ] people think you are too skinny
Total: 1 out of 10

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)
[x] your mind is all over the place (I'm pretty sure I'm insane by medical standards)
[ ] you are hyper most of the time
[ ] you barely pay attention to anything
[ ] you can't cooperate well
[ ] you talk all the time
[ ] you need attention 24/7
Total: 1 out of 6

BIPOLAR DISORDER
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[ ] you are very irritable
[ ] you are antisocial
[x] you have very high self esteem sometimes
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex
[ ] you have thought of/attempted suicide
Total: 2 out of 6

BULIMIA NERVOSA
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[x] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[ ] people think you're way too skinny
Total: 1 out of 7

CONDUCT DISORDER (This used to be me, I think)
[ ] you are a bully.
[x] you threaten other people. (But only as a joke, strange as that sounds)
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
Total: 1 out of 10

DEPRESSION
[x] You are always sad. (There's a specific reason for this, though.)
[ ] You find no hope in your future.
[x] You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day.
[ ] You have low self esteem.
[ ] everything bad happens is always your fault
[ ] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] You are failing school.
[ ] You have thought of/attempted suicide.
[x] you have ran away from home.
[ ] Hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 4 out of 11

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)
[x] You have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[ ] you have harmed yourself.
[ ] you are afraid you will get any kind of germs.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again
Total: 5 out of 7

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)
[x] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[ ] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] You have not had a lot of sleep lately. (But that's because of my musical =_=; )
[ ] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[/] You act younger than your age. (I act older than my age, too.)
Total: 5.5 out of 9

SCHIZOPHRENIA
[ ] you often have hallucinations. (I see things, but they're usually real)
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[ ] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[x] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
Total: 6 out of 9

I guess I'm OC and schizo, then. Not much of a surprise there -_-;


........I'm avoiding the issue now.
Something really weird happened to me today. And the "normals" will think I'm crazy.
My mom thinks I had an anxiety attack, which apparently runs in the family. But I'm pretty sure that it was something different.
I'll just say what happened, since I'm not even sure what this was.

I was in church this morning, and everything was fine. Then I stopped saying some of the congregation parts that I didn't agree with. (The stuff that the church says in reply to the pastor and to God). I began to read into the words more, and realized that that we were saying we were unworthy and that everything was for God, which I knew already. But now, it felt like that was wrong.
I started to get a headache and felt a little dizzy, which happens frequently to me in church. (It always stops once I get outside)
Then I felt......unwelcome is the word I'm going to use. Like something was telling me that I didn't belong there anymore. I felt like an intruder, and I stopped participating altogether.
And then (This is when it starts to sound crazy) it felt like something was trying to get into my head, through the area where my spine and brain join up. I spent the rest of the time in the sanctuary keeping whatever it was out. I avoided all physical contact with my family and felt really irritated when I had to touch someone.
When church finally ended, I got outside as fast as possible, without actually running. My mom kept asking me what was wrong, and I couldn't answer. I just wanted to get away from the church. I didn't want to go back in for snacks or anything, which I usually do. So I sat in the car with my brother until my mom was done.

I was really withdrawn until a few hours ago. But, now I feel like something doesn't want me to go back to church, and it isn't God.
I really don't want to go back, because I'm scared of what might happen. I don't belong there anymore. It might be because of how much I've strayed from the traditional "Christian" viewpoint, but I'm not sure.
My mom told me that "nothing can harm you in God's House", but I feel that that's not true. Whatever inhabits my church has turned against me.
I never felt God in that church anyways. He/She was always out in nature for me.

What am I going to do? My mom wants me to keep going to church, but I'm not comfortable with that at ALL. She won't let me avoid church "just" because I had an "anxiety attack".

I feel so alone.